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Wednesday, November 1st, 2006
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3:22 pm
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Today is one of those beautiful days where you wake up for a short day of work and nothing is wrong, like the weather knew everything was going to be okay. I let it all go, I know the truth is what matters and no matter what happens it's always going to be known. There's a lot I want to redo and keep doing in my life and I can't seem to find that balance due to money owning me, yet never wanting to stay. I feel like I forgot about you guys, but through these blurs and finding what I used to know you still run through my mind every second, i'm gonna fix that.
current mood:  rejuvenated
current music: third eye blind
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| Monday, August 21st, 2006
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1:06 am
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I really hate everything about my life right now, and I think you both know why. Which kind of makes it more worse. Sometimes you can be so afraid to let go of what you thought you knew, you'd rather let it kill you first.
current mood:  disappointed
current music: radiohead
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| Monday, July 24th, 2006
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12:39 am - midnight toker
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So myspace isn't working, so I thought I'd return to my roots. I have a job again. I'm a teller at bank of america which honestly I don't totally dig but I get paid good and there's good stuff that comes with it so whateverr. Weird huffing and puffing nights seem to be this summer. Everything reminds me of him its so disgusting, like even a slurpie or love songs with delilah, nothing is sacred. Not in a oh man I need him want him, but miss certain things and wish someone else could just be there and have them? I don't know. There's no warped at Randalls this year and i'm all thrown off by it, like its not happening. I had two goals this summer and so far neither one has been accomplished, and I only have a month left so it's not looking good. Shopping is what I need and want to do but I don't want to blow my money and there's not even that much good. I'm so inbetween.. everything.
current mood:  blah
current music: smashing pumpkins
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| Sunday, July 2nd, 2006
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1:36 am
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I'm pretty sure Jared Leto crawling on the floor saying I wanna fuck you like an animal I wanna feel you on the inside is quite possibly the sexiest thing to happen.. ever.
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| Wednesday, June 28th, 2006
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9:13 pm - say anything
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I'm such a coward. I wish anyone would be standing outside my window holding a boombox blasting whatever song just as long as they really meant it. Starving, scared, and full of hope to reinvent everything.
current mood:  awake
current music: glassjaw
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| Tuesday, April 11th, 2006
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3:57 pm - wow it's been a while
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So my life is totally upside down. Not in the super depressed tragic way, but everything is just so different. I live in Torrington now which is seriously just so stupid and boring. It's like theres nothing here its just so empty, I still haven't gone out looking for a job, but to be quite honest i'd prefer to remain a hobo sponging off of my mom worry free. The house is alright I haven't even begun to unpack because the walls still need to be painted and I don't have all my furniture yet so how much sense would it make anyway. Basically I spend my days smoking in the in the mood parking lot or Burr Pond, Rachel has made the whole thing so easy though just always here I don't know what i'd do without her. Old school GC, cigarette in hand, windows down, and some mcdonalds is just how we roll. Nights have been spent with the ever amazing Dizzle who is my days of our lives birthday soulmate. Whether its starbucks or just driving around to the beat of aqua. Trying to forget all about the iraqi depression and forks ugh what we're exposed to. There's also this stupid boy brandon.. I just feel like i'm wasting my time again, but for some reason I don't want to totally let go because well i'm a stupid girl. I really miss Riann i'm pretty sure a road to south carolina is happening. So in conclusion never move to torrington, you'll lose your mind.
current mood: lazy
current music: yeah yeah yeahs
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| Saturday, November 5th, 2005
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1:42 am - calling out to the astronaut I need some of what you got I need to be highhh
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Today has been such a something corporate day I can't even fathom it. I think this is the first time in a while I actually have something to update on crazyy. So yeah I got my license today about time geez, so I had a celebration with Rachel and Dizzle and it couldn't have been anymore perfect. And i'm working at best buy now which rocks I actually get decent hours good pay and a sweet discount so this is basically my big fuck you to Barry's Hallmark of New Milford Connecticut. With that out of the way I end this with nothing else but: Hey now the straw dog is out in the street hey now there's chemicals in the clouds hey now they're callin all the police but they won't get to us anyhow <3
current mood: happy
current music: something corporate duh
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| Monday, July 11th, 2005
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1:49 am - i'd prefer to be remembered as a smiling face not this fucking wreck thats taken its place
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Today I got some old pictures developed and I just looked really hard and thought, what happened? I really never thought someone could feel this way, like I don't wish this on anyone.
and I really don't care if I never wake up again
current mood: blank
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| Sunday, June 26th, 2005
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6:22 am
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official New Milford High School Graduate right here, I really never thought i'd see the day with all the school I missed but yo here I am. The grad party was awesome and yeah I definitely haven't slept in a day sooo, mad update-age and picture-age laterrr.
current mood:  exhausted
current music: elliot smith
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| Friday, June 24th, 2005
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12:50 am
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Well I somehow made it, school's been out for like two days. Things have been crazy for a while but today is the first time in a long time I felt alive. It was so gorgeous out today, before work I just sat out on the patio reading and smoking and it was just really nice. Everything's gone by so quickly I haven't really had time to be like wow after this summer a lot of people are going to be gone, I wish them nothing but the best and love them to pieces. KT's going to be home soon and I can't wait to see her, i'm the worst penpal ever though she's probably going to run me over in her rednecks wet dream. I'm really scared my graduation gownish thing isn't going to fit, it should be fine but I think everyone has that fear like a prom dress all over. Tomorrow i'm going to Westport and I really can't wait to see the ocean.
( soundtrack )
current mood: calm
current music: my chemical romance - give em' hell kid
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| Monday, June 6th, 2005
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9:52 pm
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| Friday, June 3rd, 2005
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5:22 pm
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i'm in a car underwater with time to kill
thinking back i forgot to tell you this
i didn't care that you left and abandoned me
what hurts more is i would still die for you
current mood: crushed
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| Saturday, April 23rd, 2005
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9:54 pm - I predict a riot
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It's been decided Hallmark needs to be burned down, any takers? I'm so sick of working I wish I was just really rich and could just say no to ever having to work again, but alas this is the real world. Spring break has been totally lame with the exception of the awesome 80's/Katiri's no more tumor birthday/end of spring break dance party. If you weren't there.. what were you thinking? The highlights: TIME WARP!, spice up your life, backstreet's back alright, the manhattan and bethel crowd, french exchange students, that place off ocean avenue, and bye bye beautiful. There's something about Maytal's basement and the right people that just makes life better.
( You think you know, but you have no idea )
current mood: okay
current music: kaiser chiefs - I predict a riot
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| Monday, April 4th, 2005
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10:21 pm - That's my prerogative
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Soo life has been good. NFG friday with the lovely barb and Liz was phat. Otherwise work work ugh. Today was mad awesome Rachel, Louie, and I had a german breakfast for Rachel's project haha we cracked hard boiled eggs with dainty spoons it was hot. We also stalked Dizzle who was standing by a payphone with some ho's what a hooker! Hence the not going to school part I mean who goes to school at like 12:30 only to leave at 2:10 who does that? Gotta love capts. Then after work Louie showed us a good time haha, except it was just circles of driving.
( Stolen from Caity like whoa )
current mood: happy
current music: do somethin' - britney spears
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| Wednesday, March 23rd, 2005
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6:07 pm - freak a leak
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Petey Pablo has no idea what really goes on at New Milford High School. It was highly annoying today standing outside forever and then being told to go somewhere just to be told to go somewhere else, but.. it was awesome having like just D & E and then going home so we should just do it everyday. Cristin and me christened our parking lot dreams haha we didn't even savor the moment and ugh Bret Mitchell is ALWAYS in the way. Lately it's just text twist and menthol dreams. So i've been sick and it sucks cause i'm never sick, but i'm surviving. I need a school night adventure with Rizzle and Dizzle like whoa. It just needs to snow.
( Boredom Succeeds )
current mood: okay
current music: FATA
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| Monday, January 3rd, 2005
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7:28 pm - I've been poking a voodoo doll that you do not know I made for you of you let's see what needles do
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So i'm back. The year ended with a bang bowling after prom new years eve style and the crazy party in Maytals basement.. so crazy Roberto and his posse just had to come even though it was really disguised as Katiri's tumors going away party.So far 2005 is proving nothing extraordinary just more school and work. Oh yea The Starting Line and FSF are going to be at the chance feb.16 sound like a plan?
( What really went down at the afterparty )
current mood:  weird
current music: hot hot heat
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| Thursday, July 22nd, 2004
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11:48 pm - i know its hurting you, but its killing me
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This has got to be the strangest part of my life yet. It's like everything flipped over and the ceiling is now the floor, just really weird and doesn't make sense. and i thought by faking a smile and attempting to be ok with everything it would work out fine, but if anyone knew how hurt, worried, and what a wreck i am, something just needs to be done, mainly for my sanity. Whatever happens.. i'm not going to be ok either way, when someone becomes that much of a part of your life and something like this happens and they act as if youre insane its just like well they dont care about you and i mean god forbid you care about them and worry, so just forget them move on, but i can't do that so if i continue to fake the smile i guess that wouldnt really matter right? because at least this way you're still there when something does happen and because you need to be to survive life. Besides doing stupid shit thats not going to help its like everyone disappeared, all my friends are like gone and I don't know if I did something or they're just never around but it didn't used to be like this. ugh. so summer school is almost over and i've been working weird hours that make no sense but i need the money so whatever. I find peace in eating applesauce and watching my so called life. and thats what its come down to..
current mood: crushed
current music: tbs - number five with a bullet
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| Wednesday, June 30th, 2004
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11:21 pm - well here I am don't know how to say this
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So I don't know what to do. Either way i'm not going to be happy or have fun. Tonight was kind of pointless but I got to swing? I so need a new job, new body, new face, just NEW! I so can't stand couples.. like ever. Everything equals gay.
current mood:  irritated
current music: saves the day
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| Wednesday, June 23rd, 2004
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11:13 pm
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Lol so me and Rachel are totally insane..
Auto response from RoXyChiC1926: *lfo+jess=who knows...*
In the summer time girls got it goin on
shake and wiggle to a hip hop song
summer time girls are the kind I like
I steal your hunny like I stole your bike ;)
MaGiCsTaR521: jessicas a song thats in mah head, jessicas a name ive often said, though they say shes too good for me, its kinda like a west side story, shes the only one for me... shes the only girl i see, cant seem to find a damn thing wrong witchya... jessica. ;)
MaGiCsTaR521: i wish for you on a fallin star... wonderin where you are... and do i ever cross ya mind in the warm sunshine... you're from the city of angels ;) , like betty davis, james dean, and gable... never know what she means to me, i think i fell for the girl in Hallmark...
As shown above. Today was interesting, felt more like summer. Ended up sleeping over Rachel's last night. Then she had senior pics in the morning so I ended up going out with my mom and grandma. Then later me and Rachel went to our dad Mr. Candlewood Lake's actual lake and chilled on the tubes while we were getting checked out by these really sketchy guys ick!! So it was just decided we had to go cause ew, and then ended up at my place to change and eat oatmeal? and then we were off to meet Louie at the playground. Where we pranced around with him and Tim like five year olds and harrassed everyone. and thats her.. EW WE KNEW IT! haha good times. Then on the way home we saw a skunk and were like ew but then looking closer it had like 5 babies all around it and it was the cutest thing ever because the mom skunk was like leading its babies back to the grass and just aw. So tomorrow I go to register for summer school ugh, but Cristin will be there so that should be crazy we'll end up like killing everyone. July is looking kinda.. I don't know but hey maybe it could bring newness. Ugh work tomorrow.. nightish.. blah!
current mood: amused
current music: dashboard confessional - vindicated
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| Wednesday, June 9th, 2004
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1:15 am
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current mood: bored
current music: coheed and cambria
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